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in the huge gilt venetian lantern察spoil of some doges barge察that hung from the ceiling of the great察oak´panelled hall of entrance察lights were still burning from three flickering jets此thin blue petals of flame they seemed察rimmed with white fire。 he turned them out and察having thrown his hat and cape on the table察passed through the library towards the door of his bedroom察a large octagonal chamber on the ground floor that察in his new´born feeling for luxury察he had just had decorated for himself and hung with some curious renaissance tapestries that had been discovered stored in a disused attic at selby royal。 as he was turning the handle of the door察his eye fell upon the portrait basil hallward had painted of him。 he started back as if in surprise。 then he went on into his own room察looking somewhat puzzled。 after he had taken the button´hole out of his coat察he seemed to hesitate。 finally察he came back察went over to the picture察and examined it。 in the dim arrested light that struggled through the cream´coloured silk blinds察the face appeared to him to be a little changed。 the expression looked different。 one would have said that there was a touch of cruelty in the mouth。 it was certainly strange。
he turned round and察walking to the window察drew up the blind。 the bright dawn flooded the room and swept the fantastic shadows into dusky corners察where they lay shuddering。 but the strange expression that he had noticed in the face of the portrait seemed to linger there察to be more intensified even。 the quivering ardent sunlight showed him the lines of cruelty round the mouth as clearly as if he had been looking into a mirror after he had done some dreadful thing。
he winced and察taking up from the table an oval glass framed in ivory cupids察one of lord henrys many presents to him察glanced hurriedly into its polished depths。 no line like that warped his red lips。 what did it mean
he rubbed his eyes察and came close to the picture察and examined it again。 there were no signs of any change when he looked into the actual painting察and yet there was no doubt that the whole expression had altered。 it was not a mere fancy of his own。 the thing was horribly apparent。
he threw himself into a chair and began to think。 suddenly there flashed across his mind what he had said in basil hallwards studio the day the picture had been finished。 yes察he remembered it perfectly。 he had uttered a mad wish that he himself might remain young察and the portrait grow old察that his own beauty might be untarnished察and the face on the canvas bear the burden of his passions and his sins察that the painted image might be seared with the lines of suffering and thought察and that he might keep all the delicate bloom and loveliness of his then just conscious boyhood。 surely his wish had not been fulfilled拭such things were impossible。 it seemed monstrous even to think of them。 and察yet察there was the picture before him察with the touch of cruelty in the mouth。
cruelty had he been cruel拭it was the girls fault察not his。 he had dreamed of her as a great artist察had given his love to her because he had thought her great。 then she had disappointed him。 she had been shallow and unworthy。 and察yet察a feeling of infinite regret came over him察as he thought of her lying at his feet sobbing like a little child。 he remembered with what callousness he had watched her。 why had he been made like that拭why had such a soul been given to him拭but he had suffered also。 during the three terrible hours that the play had lasted察he had lived centuries of pain察aeon upon aeon of torture。 his life was well worth hers。 she had marred him for a moment察if he had wounded her for an age。 besides察women were better suited to bear sorrow than men。 they lived on their emotions。 they only thought of their emotions。 when they took lovers察it was merely to have some one with whom they could have scenes。 lord henry had told him that察and lord henry knew what women were。 why should he trouble about sibyl vane拭she was nothing to him now。
but the picture拭what was he to say of that拭it held the secret of his life察and told his story。 it had taught him to love his own beauty。 would it teach him to loathe his own soul拭would he ever look at it again
no察it was merely an illusion wrought on the troubled senses。 the horrible night that he had passed had left phantoms behind it。 suddenly there had fallen upon his brain that tiny scarlet speck that makes men mad。 the picture had not changed。 it was folly to think so。
yet it was watching him察with its beautiful marred face and its cruel smile。 its bright hair gleamed in the early sunlight。 its blue eyes met his own。 a sense of infinite pity察not for himself察but for the painted image of himself察came over him。 it had altered already察and would alter more。 its gold would wither into grey。 its red and white roses would die。 for every sin that he mitted察a stain would fleck and wreck its fairness。 but he would not sin。 the picture察changed or unchanged察would be to him the visible emblem of conscience。 he would resist temptation。 he would not see lord henry any morewould not察at any rate察listen to those subtle poisonous theories that in basil hallwards garden had first stirred within him the passion for impossible things。 he would go back to sibyl vane察make her amends察marry her察try to love her again。 yes察it was his duty to do so。 she must have suffered more than he had。 poor child he had been selfish and cruel to her。 the fascination that she had exercised over him would return。 they would be happy together。 his life with her would be beautiful and pure。
he got up from his chair and drew a large screen right in front of the portrait察shuddering as he glanced at it。 ;how horrible ─he murmured to himself察and he walked across to the window and opened it。 when he stepped out on to the grass察he drew a deep breath。 the fresh morning air seemed to drive away all his sombre passions。 he thought only of sibyl。 a faint echo of his love came back to him。 he repeated her name over and over again。 the birds that were singing in the dew´drenched garden seemed to be telling the flowers about her。
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Chapter 8
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chapter 8
it was long past noon when he awoke。 his valet had crept several times on tiptoe into the room to see if he was stirring察and had wondered what made his young master sleep so late。 finally his bell sounded察and victor came in softly with a cup of tea察and a pile of letters察on a small tray of old sevres china察and drew back the olive´satin curtains察with their shimmering blue lining察that hung in front of the three tall windows。
;monsieur has well slept this morning察─he said察smiling。
;what oclock is it察victor拭─asked dorian gray drowsily。
;one hour and a quarter察monsieur。;
how late it was he sat up察and having sipped some tea察turned over his letters。 one of them was from lord henry察and had been brought by hand that morning。 he hesitated for a moment察and then put it aside。 the others he opened listlessly。 they contained the usual collection of cards察invitations to dinner察tickets for private views察programmes of charity concerts察and the like that are showered on fashionable young men every morning during the season。 there was a rather heavy bill for a chased silver louis´quinze toilet´set that he had not yet had the courage to send on to his guardians察who were extremely old´fashioned people and did not realize that we live in an age when unnecessary things are our only necessities察and there were several very courteously worded munications from jermyn street money´lenders offering to advance any sum of money at a moments notice and at the most reasonable rates of interest。
after about ten minutes he got up察and throwing on an elaborate dressing´gown of silk´embroidered cashmere wool察passed into the onyx´paved bathroom。 the cool water refreshed him after his long sleep。 he seemed to have forgotten all that he had gone through。 a dim sense of having taken part in some strange tragedy came to him once or twice察but there was the unreality of a dream about it。
as soon as he was dressed察he went into the library and sat down to a light f